Incert future

I count my days thinking about the ending of bouring hours and as result of that entire months are gone and i have done the minimal i should. Life is too short and my belives says that this is the only oportunity I`ve got to do something. After this all I`ll have is nothing, nothing that I`ve learned, that i`ve gathered, that I`ve seeded will serve for something. So if all of this in vain why bother with the lost boring hours? Will I be loosing something that it matters? 

I`m about to complete my 33 years old and my 34 is just starting and all I have is dreams, hope and bouring hours... no matter what i change, no matter where i go. Is it the world made of boring hours and I dont know it? All I can say is, untill now, the running away just showed me that i cant get out of this. But I prefer to believe that I`m in that magical corner, that last one where shows the very ending of the running. Where would I be if I didnt choose the longest way? Where would I be for choosing this long way? Would I know in end the right choice?

Today I wake up with many certainties, things were where they should be, like in a chess game. But like in a chess game we never see all probabilities and all the certainties were gone by the end of the morning and boring hours became even more unsustainable. So I started to analise mistakes, wrongs moviments, wrong possible moviments and most important: where the game is leading me? Would be my mistake not knowing that the estrategia is take my goods instinct to fall into error?

There are many questions about everything and i know for sure that we need a guide to not loose ourself. Mine is "be true to myself". Plus, add some good hours to compose your day and dont let things happen, made them happen to you.

By Larissa Naves

Dublin, 04 July 2016.